The Evolution of Man

I wonder is it just me or have women's tastes in men changed throughout the years since I have been around. I actually thought my taste was pretty good until I got grown and then I asked myself what was I thinking? Well, I see some of the young men that the young ladies like now and well...Form your own opinion.

Back in the day, I realize I haven't really formed a taste yet, so I was all about him...





sigh...The stay video when he's talking all sexy and he bites his lip and rolls his head back. The video that we discovered he had hazel eyes. Every girl at my school was all about some Devante back then. Now he kind of looks like a crackhead...and I think he actually is now.



When I saw "oochie coohie" for the first time. I was like Devante who? Hell, if he was still out today I'd still wanna do him. He was foooine. Then he followed this with "brainstormin..." I was ready to give my life for this man. But then he dropped of the face of the earth. There was rumor going around that he had aids, but I think that replaced the DeVante being dead rumor. I don't think he even came out with a failed second album, He just quit. He was fooine.


I asked some young ladies who worked at my job who are either close to my age or a little younger who they think look good. Here are the responses I got.




He's ehhh. Overrated. Granted he was fine in "The best man",but I think its because we hadn't seen him in a little while and we were taken aback because he didn't have that fucked up wannabe flattop hair that he had in Boyz in the Hood. Its something very off about him that makes him unattractive to me. Maybe he's gay.



The favorite. I hear his name tossed around a lot. I think a lot of women get into the whole thug thing, and that's where his name comes up. I never got into the whole thug thing. But Cam'ron? I'm so sorry no man who is supposedly hard should be wearing pink. And does anyone remember "Horse and Carriage"? Yeah. Don't get it.


Now I have what we call the popular vote. The black men that are "attractive" by association. In other words, black men who white people lie and say that their fine, just because they're famous.



He was in the 50 most beautiful people this year. He was Wanda the ugly girl on In Living Color. You know why? Because he looks just like her. He's a bitch, too. He thinks he's Ray Charles, still almost a year after he won that damn Oscar.



The king of "I'm fine because I'm famous". Now I'm not gonna front, Back in the "U Remind Me" days, I would have totally done Usher. But the more famous he gets, the fruitier he becomes.



Now we come to what I call grown and sexy. Men who I think are just handsome.



These two are currently the father of my children. A lot of women tell me they do not like Terrence Howard, and they claim its because he's too light. Look at him!!!. Are you bitches blind!!! Terrence Howard has to make himself looks less attractive a lot so he can get roles. My other child's father Don Cheadle has always been appealing to me because he's so damn talented. He's a normal looking man with a seemingly very laid back personality who can command attention anytime he wants to. He has that "its something about him I can't put my finger on" appeal that is a lot of the time more important than looks.



I'm mad about this one. Blair Underwood is fine. He was fine on L.A. Law. He was fine when he was Robin Givens's boyfriend that Theo was jealous of on the Cosby Show. He's always been fine. But I was so blinded by Devante for so, so long. I didn't come to really appreciate the fineness that his him until he was on sex and the city last year. He is fine.

Here's my old standby:

I know, I know. But don't sit there and act like Ginuine offered to buy you a drink at the club you would say no, don't even lie and say you would say no.

More of the same....

I'm in a rut. Not in a "I hate my life" kind of way; but more like a "everything is the fucking same no matter what I do; so therefore I hate my life" kind of way. I hope that makes sense.

I literally have until May of next year to decide what the hell I'm going to do with my life. This deadline was not something that was concocted out of my own head; this is when my lease is up. I have to renew it way in advance so I actually have to get my shit together way before then. I'm so lost. Let's go over the examples very, very brief detail shall we!

1. I don't make any money at my 2 jobs!!!
I work in two very laid back work environments, I have great insurance, I can pretty much do whatever I want at my jobs. But I don't make money. Yes, I have a roof over my head and food, blah, blah. But if something serious comes up like me needing a new car or having to pay a lot of money to fix my current one. I'm fucked.

2. I need a new car
I drive a car that is paid for. For those of you have a car note, you all understand what a huge relief that is. Problem is; the transmission is not the best right now, and when the transmission is not great, you need a new car. I don't even feel its safe enough to take on the highway, so even if I wanted to drive somewhere. I couldn't. Why not buy a new car? Refer to exhibit 1.

3. I need a more grownup life.
This one is hard to explain. I pretty much live the life of a college student without the actual classes. Yes, I work 13 hour days but most of it is spent on or near a college campus. I eat a lot junk food. I'm always broke. I don't even own a decent suit. There are people I know around here who are even older than me who still attend greek parties, frequently. There's nothing wrong with it every once in a while, but they attend parties at the frat houses. That's just wrong.
No one really wants to get old, I certainly don't. But there comes a time when you have to face the inevitable. Its coming and new responsibilities come with it.

4. There is no possibility of ever having a relationship here.
Yes, I want to get married. Not in a co-dependency type way, but I though at this time in my life I would at least be in serious relationship. Well, that's kind of hard considering every black male who lives in your city is either half your age, and if they are your age they still act like they are half your age, because they're almost 30 and still in undergrad. Not saying anywhere else would be any different, but here there's no room to even experiment.

5. I'm too comfortable
With all of its flaws, living in a small town does have its benefits. It pains me to admit that more than anything else, but its true. I pay less than $500 a month for a 2 bedroom apt. It takes me exactly 7 minutes to get from home to work. When I'm bored, I usually walk right across the street to my friends' house even at 1 or 2 in the morning. Its a $5 cover to get into the club. I can always go to my parents house to do laundry for free and eat dinner if I want. I went to rite aid at 10 Saturday night and left the car door wide open for about a hour, I came back and my car was unharmed. Get my drift? Its just really easy, and harder than I imagined to give up.

6. I'm scared that when I do leave I'll want to come back.
When I went to LA, and realized the one half to three quarters of my time was spent in car. I hated it. I was thinking "how the hell do people drive so damn much?" But people do, everyday with no problem. Love the aspect of being in a place where life actually moves forward instead of standing still. Hate all the driving and the fact I have to travel (gasp) somewhere for 2 hours and I'm not leaving the damn state. I also hated the fact I had to figure out so many things on own and actually somewhat pay attention to what I was doing. I have driven on the highway drunk here with one contact in my eye and paid less attention. That will take some getting used to.

7. Last but not least
My ex-fiance called me. I haven't heard from him in two and a half years. I haven't changed my phone number so it was easy for him to call. But while I was avoiding the phone; I thought to myself even if I had a different phone number and I live in a different place it would be really easy for him to find me. He knows some of the same people I know, he knows where I work, he knows where my parents live, he knows my car. Hell, all he needed to do was go to my old apartment complex and ask my old landlords where I was b/c they knew us really well. They would happily given up the information. I hate that. That's reason enough to move to Timbuk 2 if I have to.

I know, I know, Shut up......

I know, its been freaking forever since my last entry. But I can't help it my life is boring. That is not my fault, this event nothing to do with me.


I figure that since I'm currently incapable of completing a coherent though. Here are just a few random tidbits that I will give brief comments on.

1. I don't know if you all have seen the recent pictures of Beyonce and Jay-z in Europe recently. You probably haven't since I assume you all have lives. I went chatting on a community where several people discussing this very photo, and more than one mentioned how on earth someone can let their butt get that big. I'm not gonna front, my butt looks exactly like that with tight jeans on, so I know these anorexic bitches are saying the same shit about me. But ladies and gentleman, let me present the picture to you that has scared me into 6:00 a.m. spin classes.






yup, that's trina. I had a shot that was straight on her butt, but I'm still learning how to work photobucket, and she's not being very nice to me.

Anyhoo, I have been fooled along with the nation apparently into thinking that Trina had a cute shape. She sure thinks she has a cute shape that's why she's not wincing and covering herself with her hands. And, ladies and gentlemen especially anorexic white girls. That's what a big ass looks like.

2. The media is bullshit, people. All of its lies!!! So what else is new. Well, along with my several internet sources, I actually found out how old Destiny's Child really is. I'm not going to bust them out here; or "diss them on the internet" as beyonce once wrote. But everybody in the industry lies about their age, not just shave a couple of years off. A lot. There's a little child on the inside going "oooh, I'm tellin."

3. Laguna Beach, has literally taken over my life. I don't know what I will do with myself when this season ends.

4. So has Breaking Bonaduce.

5. I think I have finally kicked my light skinned men obsession. (Modern Temptress stop laughing), no seriously. Back in the day, I would not even talk to dude unless he was light skinned. Now I think a lot of them are gay.

6. My mini-obsession with Drew is over, very very over. He's still a friend, but his "I'm trying to remain mysterious" act is annoying as shit. I cussed him out the other day because I thought he was talking shit about me, but turns out he was talking about someone else. I kind of knew it when I was cussing, so I think that anger came from another place. Rejection...or perhaps unwavering bitterness.

7. Last, but not least. I have recently been infected with the college football bug. I started watching it b/c a couple of my friends are boys and they watch it, but I have to say I'm hooked. For you men who want your women to join you during the game; try explaining it to them. Women will not be drawn to what they cannot understand. You can quote me. I predict USC and Florida state for the Rose Bowl by the way